Day Fifty Nine; I'm sorry

i had such strong intentions to take a picture for today, or at least do something accomplishing. But no, NOTHING. Lazing around all day. Not one thing accomplished. Sunday always seems to be my productive day of the week. My most determination I guess. So now for something completely different. Rugby's been a lot of fun. I can't wait till things get a bit more intense. Did you know that my dryer is broken? It sucks, considering I don't own all that many pairs of pants. But i won't complain, my washer could be broken as well and i would have to wash my clothing in the bathtub. Which in all honestly i do not mind.

But whatever. Uh, hm. I'm going to build my own wooden raft, and I'll sail it
All they way to god knows where. It's going to kick total ass.
Hate to quote Andrew Jackson Jihad
but i wish i had more money then I do.

Yeah that's really it.
I'll have a whole story tomorrow.
and just everything.
I'm gonna write a book!
BUT I'm off,
later days!

Day Fifty Eight

I have 3 days left on meds.
Danavlahos :]
weekend.
I LOVE LIFE<3

Fifty Seven;

Rugby kills, i love it. 4 days on meds. Life is good.

DAY FIFTY SIX

Alright, well, I have five days left on accutane. I CANNOT WAIT TO FINALLY HAVE CONTROL OVER MY EMOTIONS! Amazing what skin medicine can do to your mind. Either way, if anyone honestly knows me, they know I don't plan things for shit. But for once, I planned something. No picture today, because i don't feel like it.

Fifty Five; I'M TIRED

I'm pretty tired, rugby is intense i love it. I have that tomorrow and thursday. so don't expect anything good.

Fifty Four; The Like list

Mmm, I was gonna do this today, but i decided at like 10:43 that my lab is more important, i'll have that for tomorrow. Buttttttttt RUGBY TOMORROW : D<3

Day Fifty Three.

I'm in a great mood. I freckin' love life. And I've had two GREAT ideas. One is a vest, so here what I did; Cut the sleeves off (because i'm bad ass). Then I took a razor blade, and cut out the words " Try Out Your Voice!" some things got cut too big so i sharpied in two'er three letters. And now i'm in the process of sewing white tee shirt on the inside of the jacket + the letters in so you can read it and so it stays down/doesn't rip.

AND I thought of a brilliant idea for a photo. I shut all the lights off in my little makeshift art studio. And put the camera on my desk. the only light hailing from the sewing machine. an absolutely PERFECT picture in my opinion here's a small version of it;



It looks better full sized, and if you want to see how great it really is you can check them out on myspace or facebook. Theres NO editing other then resizing. The camera is just that good.

Day 51-52; The hate list

I've been counting wrong today, Febuary twentith would make it Fifty one days, but this is an over night thing I'm positive this won't be done before 12. so two days in one. YES. I'm gonna call this the the hate list, keh?keh. Theres been way to much going on, and sadly i wish things could just go back to bein' happy and not havin' a care in the world. but i have about 11-12 days left on medicine. and things can FINALLY get slightly better. Somethings aren't serious. But whatever, here we go, hate list.

• I hate being cold.
• I hate not havin' a proper computer chair, sitting on a baby highchair is getting very uncomfortable
• I absolutely hate being lonely, in all forms shapes and sizes.
• I hate having other people in my house, I prefer to be home alone even though i contridict myself on the fact that i hate being alone.
• I hate having no room to do shit on this "computer desk"
• I hate socks that are just at the ankle, i like below the ankle or up to my knees.
• I hate knowing your so close, yet so very very very far away.
• I hate quoting The Ergs! and not being able to think of things when I had a list of things to write.
• I hate the fact that The Ergs! broke up.
• I hate that Adam Goren has a life.
• I hate that I haven't had food in about twelve hours.
• I hate that I lied to my parents that I ate.
• I hate that the cold isn't cold enough for me.
• I hate the fact that I just can't be mean, my kindness just happens to make huge mistakes.
• I hate losing friends, espically ones I once could trust with anything.
• I hate the fact my super kick ass inscents hold doesn't release smoke, and that I tried to be sly and blow it out, only to fill my lungs with smoke, absolutely no fun.
• I hate that pop-pop died of lung cancer. I would have been pretty sweet to have known him longer and more then I do.
• I cannot stand the fact that Grandma's gone. I made stupid decisions not to see her at times I should have.
• I hate the fact that my parents don't listen to me when I talk of things non-important.
• I hate talking to my parents about important things.
• I absolutely hate that my mom can't live without her cellphone.
• I hate that she goes out more then half the week.
• I HATE having to babysit.
• I hate the child i babysit.
• I hate when my dads mad that moms always gone and I get blamed for things.
• I hate the fact my parents spend money on me.
• I hate this basement and it's bland-ness.
• I HATEEEEEE that Cami's a lazy dog.
• I hate not being able to talk to people.
• I hate having to lie to people.
• I hate liars, I've been lied to one too many times.
• I hate that Mr.Smiley killed his family.
• I find it creepy that a man murdered his father right behind my house.
• I'm pretty thankful that guy didn't go on a rampage.
• I hate having an alarm in the house, it makes me feel like someones going to get in.
• I hate magic the gathering.
• I hate the fact that headphones or any type of music amplifying device breaks under my control.
• I HATE breaks, I miss school.
• I hate daily routines.
• I HATE the fact that I've been doing absolutely shitty.
• I hate the all the side effects/things caused by my choice to use accutane.
• I HATE MEDICINE, I WILL AVOID ALL MEDICINE AT ALL COSTS.
• Clean rooms are for shmucks, looks like I'm one of them.
• I hate hate HATE, having to carry chapstick around. Thank god i've got 10-11 days left.
• I HATE the internet
• I hate the fact i use the internet more then twice daily.
• I hate the fact that i've been leaving serious "i hate things" in random spots. Just so I don't leave things flat out like a book.
• I hate the future, it's insanely ridiculious to worry about.
• I hate that I've been drawing blanks when I had thought this out and I had over fifty thousand.
• I hate Movies, i have no patients for them
• I hate the fact I have nothing to do, no little clothing projects, no genious art ideas.
• I hate the fact that when I do happen to have a little project to do, it takes me a few weeks to actually get it done/get started.
• I hate wasting electricity.
• I hate hate HATE all the nightmares I've had in the past month or so.
• I hate the fact that I just can't get a good nights sleep.
• I hate having a nightmare almost every night.
• I hate not having good dreams.
• I hate sleeping more then 5-6 hours.
• Every time I just can't get up, and I lay in bed, and every time I happen to doze off, all i get is nightmares. By the dozen. I'M SICK OF IT.
• I don't even know what to do anymore.
• I hate that this is getting legenthy
• I hate that there's so much more I can put in this, but just can't find.
• I hate bloody noses, I swear to god, if I get one more bloody nose within the next 10-11 days. I will cut it off.
• I wish I had the patience to read books lately.
• I hate being hungover shit.
• I hate missing things.
• I hate waking up knowing I'll have a shitty day.
• I hate when people happen to say "Whats wrong? You're not lookin' so good." When i feel perfectally fine.
• I hate when people happen to say " " and my day goes from decent to absolutely horrible.
• I hate bleach in my coffee.
• I hate not having coffee or tea.
• I hate having three empty shelves on my bookshelf of five shelves.
• I hate bad days.
• I hate the cold.
• I hate summer.
• I hate certain people.
• I hate that I've began to hate people again.
• I wish I could punch certain people in the face.
• I hate that this list is all "I hate...."
• I love monthly shipments of coffee.
• I hate wasting things.
• I hate the fact I have a sedimental attatchment to so many things.
• I hate the past, whats over is over, today is always a new day.
• I hate that when I'm ready to talk, the people I want to are unavailable.
• I hate not being with certain people, for certain periods of time.
• I'm glad I'm not obese like I once was.
• I'm absolutely sick of people.
• I hate being with masses of people.
• I hate talking to people.
• I love talking to friends.
• I hate stalkers, people that call me too often, when people say they'll call and don't, people that just don't call, people that never reply to anything, people that piss on bandanas.
• I'm fucking furious.
• I'm rather hungry.
• I hate people that get sad that they're not on my top. Wahhhhh FUCK YOU.
• I hate comming off as a "bad kid"
• I hate that some parents think I'm a drug addict.
• I hate kids that've drank, and that just think that they stopped means they're XXX. YOUR NOT FUCKING FROM BIRTH TILL DEATH IF YOU EVEN SIPPED ALCHOL WITH THE INTENTIONS OF BEING COOL.
• I hate people not understanding my refrences.
• I hate not having someone to hold.
• I hate spending my time on unappreciated art.
• I hate that kids have absolutely no respect.
• I hate people that stare.
• I hate irresponsible people.
• I hate being lied to.
• I hate being replaced.
• I hate being an ex, or former.
• I hate when people think they can get away with things.
• I hate when people are verbally fighting in my house if it isn't me and Gage.
• I hate having to worry.
• I hate worrying about people, who have smart heads on their shoulders.
• I sometimes hate that I go out of my way for people.
• I hate third-wheeling things.
• I hate being ditched for boyfriends/girlfriends.
• I HATE being ignored.
• I hate when people OBNOXIOULY kiss.
• I hate people that are way to touchy when they're in public espically in a room of people who are fucking sick of that shit.
• I hate not having hands to hold when crossing the street.
• I'm horrified of getting hit by a car one of these days.
• I hate when people talk on their cellphones while driving.
• I hate people that blow through red lights while on their cellphone.
• I HATE the possibility of losing Literary.
• I'm not all that fond of everyone and their mother knowing my personal business.
• I hate guitarhero/rockband.
• I hate having to replay Oracle of Ages/Seasons to fight Ganon.
• I wish I had the Biggerons Sword.
• I hate not being able to talk to someone mentally.
• I hate super short phone conversations.
• I hate running out of things.
• I HATE people that take advantage of people.
• I hate when people are drunk, and take advantage of people.
• I hate people that give out my phone number without my permission.
• I hate when someone else is on my house phone.
• I HATE PEOPLE I DO NOT LIKE IN MY HOUSE.
• I hate when people ignore me, for stupid things.
• I hate bad bad bad bad lawns
• I love trees.
• I hate not going on adventures.
• I hate when people hint they don't want to hang out with you, so they can hang with their girlfriend/boyfriend.
• I hate not getting that lasttt itsy bitsy sip out of a bottle of tea.
• I hate bottled water unless I know i'll reuse the bottle myself.
• I hate the fact thats scissors don't hang from my ceiling like they used to.
• I hate the fact I'm almost done with this list.
• I hate the fact I'll wind up making a new list.
• I hate the fact that this is just the beginning of a long chain of lists of things i hate.
• I HATE PEOPLE

Thats really it, keh?keh. I hope you were somehow offended.

Day fifty. I moustache The Flaming Tsunamis

Things haven't been awesome. I absolutely hate what I've become. At least I know I have a small handful of people that're there for me.

Fourty Nine

Today i played scott in war. I had ONE card left, and damn straight, IT WAS AN ACE. I ended up winning the game in the end. that has strong meaning. Never give up. Learn from it.

Day fourty eight. I fucking love life.

As shitty as things get. I love life. I'm quite content with how things are right about now. I just thought about how cool it would be to get an award for being so happy. But that would ruin it. If I'm so damn happy, maybe it should show off ya'know? I don't need a medal to say "Hey, I'm Reid, And i LOVE life" to show how much i love things. It should just be a given. And ya'know what? I love my friends. My friends are fan-fucking-tastic. The ones that say they'll be there for ya. Always seem to be, no matter what, even after going seperate ways. I'm pretty fucking grateful. And family? Man, I love my family. Although I fight with my brother, I guess he's pretty cool. I'm honestly not so sure, if anyone really checks up on this daily, so since it's like 11 at night. I'm not going to take a picture, I'm going to say that I love Utopia and their sale on Doc.Martens. YES. I LOVE BOOTS.

Day fourty seven.

Short but sweet. Shitty break.
BUT i got 12 eye docs. for 64 dollars.
how fanfuckingtastic.

Day Fourty six? or fourty seven.

I absolutely HATE breaks. Complete waste of my time. I don't do anything insanely accomplishing/memorable. I need ideas, because It's only monday. I have 6 days left to do something that i'll remember. UGH but;



Thirteen and a half days left of fucking medication. All the shots, if I may add over sixty to seventy shots, on my face. The unbearable pain, the only thing thats currentally bothering me is my arms, but then again. I don't take care of them how I should be, but whatever. I can finally have my life back. I'm pretty stoked.

Day Fourty Four; Friday

Not the best friday. It always appears that whenever I get a ton of people asking me "whats wrong?" or "you don't look so good" and nothings wrong. Well, not yet. I honestly don't feel so good. I'm feeling very quite and not talkitive. Whatever here you go;



This break is going to suck. Valentines day WILL suck. Not looking foward to it one bit nor am I looking foward to deal with all this lovey dovey bullshit. Fuck you valentines day.

Day 42; Boo.

I haven't written one of these, in a few days. I've been using my other blog. Which you could go find yourself if you really care. But yeah, nothin' has been going on lately. Running two miles or so with the rugby team, I'm very excited to start all this. And I'm determinded to stick through with this. But aside rugby, I'm doin' okay. Been better though, but who knows. I'm digging life, and Im just dealing with it one day at a time. so whatever, day by day. So here;



Yeah, I'm a cutie ;D

Day Fourty; JEESUSSS

blah blah blah. Mondays are my favorite days of the week. If I were some sort of demonic fiend that feed off of depression. I'd be so properly feed on Mondays, to be honest, I don't care. I like every day of the week, they all have their ups and downs. BUT anyways, my mindless bullshit rambling is always everyones favorite things to read. BUT! I feel like writing/typing/ whatever the fuck, it's my blog, I can do whatever the fuck I want with it. And honestly, I don't want to take a pictue of myself. So whatever, deal with it. Blah Blah Bullshit.

Day Thirty Eight; Lately...

I've had no time to do this lately, I've just been pre-occupied with everything. Things just haven't been going my way, but then again, when did God die, and who put me in charge? But, things'll get better, little by little. Thursday I saw Big D and the Kids Table. Absolutely the best. I LOVED the set/the new song. I cannot wait for the next record. After Bad Manners, while waiting for The Beat, Scott and I met David McWane. Which was the absolute BEST, he's by far the greatest (next to Roger). I took a picture with him, and It'll probably be on their website/myspace/facebook at the end of their tour, which is in like a week or two. Can't wait to see it. But in the mean time;



Random girls want to take pictures of me? This is the result. But this weekends going to be no fun. I DID get my report card, here're the results.

Class Midterm Grade;
English 77 87
Global 91 93
Algebra 80 84
H.E.S. 89 87
Spanish 90 90
Drawing I 84
Band 80 85
PE 95

I still need to get things up a bit, but thats not a problem. I'm getting conflux cards today hehe, MTG rules my life. So yeah, I'll try to update this a bit more. Untill then Later days!

Day Thirty Three; Groundhog day.

Mmm, not so fond of the way things've been. I ended this semester with nothing below 80. Did pretty good on my mid terms. But I finally have a picture;



I like the way the focus is on the scissors. But otherwise eh. hate it. I hated today. Absolutely no fun.

Day thirty two; Happy Febuary

I'm done not in the mood for this.
I'll have a picture tomorrow or something
Happy Febuary.